i heard him pray
it was just the other day
he was on his knees
begging 'spare her, take me'
i lifted my head
he caught my interest
from the hospital bed
he looked at me
and i could see
the darkness had taken him

i said 'boy, don't die for
someone who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back.'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up'

i heard him laugh
when i crawled in last
he crawled beside me
trying to believe
but i know I'm gone
from these hills of gold and bronze
passed away
like summer to winter rain

i said 'boy, don't die for someone
who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up'

and i know he'll keep waiting
though my heart is failing
if i close my eyes
he fears they might never open
but i hear my heartbeat
through my ears
and i know I'll keep fighting
though the end is near

i said 'boy, don't die for someone
who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back.'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up...'

Song -- Mess

do you think my new frames
are hiding my tearful eyes
because to me they're worthless

i feel the sting of pain
it's clawing at my hear-t
because i just saw them, not us.

i can smile though my heart is breaking
wish you well in my bridesmaids dress
he can't tell it's the feeling i'm faking
he think i'm just giving you good luck

goddamnit i love him
and i told you so last week
i'm trying to hide my fears
in finding this bittersweet

it's not sweet, it's just bitter
like the vodka i keep knocking back
don't touch me
i need space
but hand me the cognac

i feel like i should be screaming
but i can't find the energy
i feel like i shouldn't be beaming
as the photographer's camera sings

but i can smile though my heart is breaking
wish you well in my bridesmaids dress
you can't tell it's the feeling i'm faking
this is such a mess

if you want me to stay then just say so
but you know i'll only want to cry
if you want me to leave then just say so
but i might cause a scene this time

...did you know he was once mine.

Song -- Tess

sometimes i get startled
by the way life sends a shock
whenever i am settled

i was only watching
watching how your lips moved
as you spoke of love and living

then it hit me:
i just wanted to test those lips
and see if they were fit to kiss
soft and pink like ice candy
to see if you too... wanted me.

i never wanted it before
but suddenly everything was clear
sex never seemed an issue
girls and girls they do not mix
but what if they did?

oh if they did, tess
my lips would find your cheek
oh if they did, tess
i'd want to push you over the brink
just to see if you screamed

no no, this is wrong
i cannot think of you that way
you're a friend; a girl
i couldn't ever lead you astray

but you're two years older
and two years more beautiful
are you two years wiser
do you see where i want you to be?

oh if you did, tess
your lips would find my cheek
oh if you did, tess
you'd push me over the brink
...i think i'd scream

oh if you did, tess...

oh if you did, tess...

oh if you did [cresc.]
if you did
if you did
if you did
tess you're yelling words i cannot hear!

oh if i could, tess
i'd push my lips against your skin
oh if i could, tess
i'd make you scream
make you scream
make you scream

...would it make you happy?

xE

oh what a coincedence
you seem to have farted on my heart
stamped on my organs
i think i should mention at the start
you came home alone again
well im sorry darling that
i came home with a friend
and she left me feeling so bad

i dont mind if you kick up a fuss
im used to it
youd think that by now youd
just be used to it
like it apadted to suit you

but i see no point in stopping
why crush one when i could get you?
i know you love me
but its too late
you already crushed me to
all these little pieces
at least my mind works
i can still go out and screw
anyone it suits me
boy, i think it's time you left the room

Song -- Love Maniac (draft)

To the boy in my English class
I don't know your name;
I know that's bad
But I think that you should know mine
And call me up sometime

I don't think you're the one
I'm just trying to have
A little fun
Because I believe in destiny
And true love on a motorway
SOngs from ancient history
There's no love without pain

So just take my hand
And we'll waste our time
Until we part along the line
I don't mind if you think I'm sad
Because I'm a loving maniac

Song -- high horse

Oh look at you playing happy families
Who'd have thought
that you fucked up worse than me

look at you with your broken dowry
who'd have thought
that you'd have no money

is it time to get off your high horse darling?
because i dont think its as strong as it used to be
is it time that you gave up those thoughts, darling?
because you're weaker than you seem...

Song -- Bitch

I think you must have cut my heart out
Because I can't feel a pulse
Now darling don't just be far out
Get that knife
I want to toast

I'm sure you could write words in my blood
And not feel a thing
I'm sure that I'd never be enough
If I didn't sing

I'm not your bitch, baby
I can't be your diamond ring
I'm not your bitch, baby
I can't do your thing
But you cut my heart out
And swallowed the key
I'm not your bitch, baby
But explain how we came to be

I've decided that you have slaughtered
Wiped your hands on your apron
Because I never said I was your floorer
But I seem to be your carpet

I'm sure you detailed my death
In elegant script
I'm sure you don't find enough
Do you get my drift?

I'm not your bitch, baby
I can't be your diamond ring
I'm not your bitch, baby
I can't do your thing
But you cut out my heart
Swallowed the key
I'm not your bitch, baby
So explain how we came to be

Give up your games
You made this your highlight
Give up your way
Before I lose mine
I would do something myself
But I want to be abused

I can be your bitch, baby
If you buy expensive things
I can be your bitch, baby
If you teach me how to give
Cut out my heart, lock it
Swallow the key
I'm your bitch, baby
Explain how we came... to... be...