it's sunset and I come to you
dirty knees and ragged claws
begging for a place to lick my wounds

aquiest
and my nerves sing starlight
I'm still this filth stained beast

but somewhere in the pit of my chest
our squalling fiend pauses
purrs through barbed comments

acknowledges my acceptance
this hovel is our holdfast
and in the pause

purring

want to rip the words from your mouth
grind them into the ground with my heel
let you see how pathetic they are

and as they scream in agony
last logic failing
last defences crumbling
they die with my sense of righteousness

and I am left bent over with grief
trying to rekindle the flame of my unfear
wanting to be the tornado I once was
but knowing

I am a widow clasping her grief to her chest
and wishing for the ignorance
that once was.

Who doesn’t want to break something they love, even for just a moment.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/279661?view_adult=true

Yes, YOU!
With your tuts
It's on TV
It's in music
It's infecting your children
Your grown children
Over twenty years of age
You're still sheltering them
From the freedom of choice

I am not the monster of your nightmares
I am a girl
A girl
A girl

I am not a robot
I feel every barb you tear into me with
Every sting on your tentacles
God I'm sorry
So sorry
For being something different to you

I think perhaps you'd understand
If I started crying.

Then you'd know
What it's like
Hearing those same asides
That old fortissimo

"Such a dyke."

Well, I am a fucking dyke
A rug muncher
A pervent
If that means that you can understand that I like more than one kind of person
Then I will take it
I will take every piece of slander you cast in my direction
If it means I can respect you again.

"I did actually try to say 'HHHHHHHHHH'. that's how cool I am. (Let's ignore the part where I also failed)"

"BRB. Crawling under this rock."

"im not allowed to cook... i burned salad. true story."

"hmmmm~ another slave? i suppose i can take you. just be glad i pay in brownies..."

"My new favorite word: haboob"

"That reminds me of flan"

"KAYLA IS A NINJA. MAYBE SHE'S STEALING OUR CAKE!!"

"MEI IF YOU WERE NORMAL, THEN SO WOULD CHARLIE SHEEN."

"Yeah little boy Uterus... He is our pride and joy.
He will be a pimp just like me ;)"

"Didn't my swagger give it away? I drink beer, swear like a sailor, whistle at women as they walk by, play hockey and have a firm buttocks that the ladies just can't resist."

"Don't be like me and get stuck with 20 kids, a mistress, and a stalker who's cheating on her uninterested boyfriend.
It won't work out in the end.
True story. "

"Only a few bite and you might get licked by the occasional person, but otherwise, we're totally normal. :sean:

"Well mei, when a donkey and a dragon love each other very much they have special dragon and donkey hugs."

"OMG YES
BECAUS THEYRE DOGS
BECAUSE
AND I USED A CAT SOUND"

you have no idea how it feels.
all i want to do is scream
I want to break things
i want to cry
and cry
and cry
until someone hears and wants to help
all i'm searching for is acceptance
and you might feel open minded
but those little comments
that sneer you don't surpress
it's like a fucking knife in my throat.
sometimes when you speak
all i want to do is stand up and walk out
tell you that it hurts
make you feel the tightness at the back of my jaw
the sting in my eyes.
you have no idea how it feels.

"I know, their innocent little minds! Let's do our best to corrupt them!"

"She has the personality of a whelk."

"I predict a whine-athon."

"I wanted SPIT!"

"You're such a whorebag!"

"*sings*You're playing with fiiiiiiire..."
"No I'm not it's not physically possible!"

"What are you doing, you're not a dinosaur!"

"BADOING... I'm bouncing off you!"

"I wish I wasn't such a vagina..."

"I want to see the YUM dog!"

"Jabby jabby hearty hearty!"

"I never thought there was a colour that matched hypothermia!"

"That would be because "comebacks" and ":(" are really good friends and just want to be together?"

"...imagine the statement for referal "beat sum1 up well bad wiv ma mafs txt bk""

*conversation pauses*
"Where you just staring at him?"
"Yep."
"Me too."

"I refuse to go to prison for public sex. I'm not even guilty!"

"Bless your little Gaga heart!"

"This is so stressful. All I want to do is learn about triangles."

"I USED TO CHEW HIS VIDEOS WHEN I WAS A WEE LASSS"

"its thickys birthday
YAAAAAAAAAAY"
"YAYAYAYAYAY
LET'S GIVE HIM A BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!
the surprise is
HIS SOULMATE IS RIMMY!"
"YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY THAT'S THE BEST GIFT EVER!"
"HE'LL BE SO PLEASED!"
"HE WILL :D:D
WHAT A BRILLIANT DAY IT WILL BE"
"all shall REJOICE!
and Rimky shall live happily ever after ♥♥
I shall plan their wedding
thicky will dress in a large, white dress with mechanical wasps (too hard for butterflies)
and Rimmy will wear pajamas."
"I just lopled."
"I think I may go in wedding planning as a profession :')"
"YOU SHOULD :D:D"
"damn, I am saving this conversation for future reference!
so when Rimky finally tie the knot, I can say a proud "IT WAS US! WE THOUGHT OF IT!""
"we can proudly raise our hands skyward and recieve the applause of the world!"

"Everyday's one big orgasm with you."

I remember you as if it were yesterday
The boy with the dimples
A recent aquisition of the school's
How you made my seven year old heart beat faster
I smiled wider to show how happy you could be if we held hands

And now, so many years later
it comes to me like a dream
and I smile, watching you across a room
recite poetry with a dry mouth.

Oh Lord, doesn't time fly?
Only months ago I could've strangled you
Now I love
I love
Oh heart, cease your beating.

I've played all my cards
So let's settle the score
Count with me, now
Tinker
Tailor
Soldier
Whore.

Oh, mother me.

i'm feeling like
this right is wrong
this feeling's gone
again

i'm dancing like
i'd fight this song
hate this song
everything is wrong

and when you ask i'll say
nothing's changed
because it has
nothing's changed

and when she comes you know
i'd do it again
break you again
claw us down

don't try to tell me it's wrong
i don't love you, darling
don't try to tell me it's wrong
i'm not afraid of this heartache

so you put your arms around me
you just smother me
oh, mother me
mother me.

you can't let me be free
just try to help me
oh, mother me
loving me.

it's been two years and still i
i can't try to leave
it's been five months and yet i
i'm too tired to leave
cry to sleep

i know you're trying to help but
she's under me
all over me

i know you hold me tight but
you're not in my skin
injected in

so you just put your arms around me
you smother me
oh, mother me
mother me

you can't face that i'm me
but you cradle me
whisper 'baby'

'I'm trying to help you through this
'I know that you need to do this
'I don't want you to wake
'And find that we're all gone.'

Put your arms around me
try to smother me
why don't you mother me
mother me?

I don't need a bandage
try to stem the flow
it's time to
let me go!

put your helpless arms
back by your sides

oh sweet child

i will smother you
smother you
what
will
your
mother
do

"We're ironically bonded!"
"Anna. We're ionically bonded..."

"Squamish!"

"Strip cheese. hahahaha!"

"Sookeeeeh is mine!"

"Toszer?"

"I know Megan, I slept with her! No, wait..."

"hoof -- RAAR!"

"I feel sicky..."

*strokes nose*

"One minute I was sitting there dreaming about painting my nails rainbow colours in a camper van, the next minute BANG SHIT WHOAH. Then POWAAAAAAH DRRRRRILLLLL BUZZZ BUZZZ."

"What flavour are Smurfs?"
"Blue?"

"Hey, Crustof."
"Yeah, Crustopher?"

"He wants cake and ice-cream and you can only have cake!"

"Buttfuck. Dimwit!"

"Dobby sex!"

"He has three emotions: grumpy, builder and drunk!"

"I don't know what you've heard of prisoners, but they don't use their bums as cupboards!"

"5, 3... Where was I going with that?!"

"Did you feel his dingdong?"

"It's because he has dyspraxia!"

"And then! You meet an elephant you can talk to... and it takes you to Kenya... and poisons you."

"Be careful with that stick (too late)"

"Oh yes, I'm a model.... of feet."

" I just nearly died typing this as i didn't chew my scone properly and choked!"

"Or the massive wedgie just cut off circulation to the nice part of his brain."

"I was calling your bluff and you were like KAPOWI!"

"Bears. n.
1.Big hairy chunks of snarl. Big teeth, powerful body, all-consuming love of salmon.
2.Husky, large, manly gay men, with a lot of body hair.
3.Beverages consumed by the illiterate." I freaking love Rum&Monkey!

"When life hands you watermelons... Make lemonade!"

The speakers bounce
and bodies swing and throw themselves
but I sit in the dark
with whose hand on my leg?

it's you.

breath hitches as you climb,
fear of being found and creeping
excitement soaring

do it.

no, don't!

but do.
i wish we could
so we will
even if only i feel it
it'll be our secret

please don't stand to go
i need to feel you here
to be almost reality.

Some truths I lie about

1. My heart breaks for Maria every time I watch West Side story
2. I rely on music and film to break hearts, so I can wrap mine tighter.
3. I love fantasy more than RL most of the time
4. I get so miserable I watch sad films just to let it out
5. I never let anyone know any of this
6. I feel fine

i've got nothing to do today
so i guess i'll sit around
and wait for you

i dont wanna play the fool today
but i'm still sitting here
waiting for you

you wont come to stay today
you wont ever say 'today,
i'm going to love you'

but i'll still wait and watch today
hoping that you'll come around
and be that kind of true

I swear i didn't mean it
you're not a whore
you didn't do all that shit
but i did mean what i said
at the time

and i swear i couldn't help it
you were there
and i got a bit pissed
and through the drunken haze
i didn't mind

but i know that you keep defending me
even though i keep denying what i see

i can see light
trickling through your hair, through your eyes
i can see waves
crashing over your heart, and mine
i want us to drown so we
have an excuse to say
it wasn't our fault
we couldn't help it
we were just
born
this
way

I'm sorry that i meant it
when i said that i couldn't hack it
but i know that you wont give up easy

i don't like giving you up
but you and i know its tough
no one else ever seems to want to say

they can see light falling straight from the stars
shining on you, dazzling us
they can see sunshine on our lips
it burns where it touches
and causes these scars
so we seem to being hiding
who we are
we were just
born
this
way...

i want to keep hiding
i want to escape
i want to run far
run far away

where we can say

there's a certain light that covers us
a certain love, a certain trust
a certain sort of abstract smile
there's a kind of weakness in the knees
and a kind of smile in the kisses
i wish that they could only see

the light
trickling through your hair, through your eyes
the waves,
crashing over your heart, and mine
the way that we're drowning to have an excuse to say
it's not our fault
we couldn't help it
i wanted to change
but shes so perfect
and I'm told that i was just
i was just

a drop of light in a dark ocean
a blinding star, a potent potion
a girl who wanted what she couldn't have

but we're fine just being us
we can hide the pain and the lust
we can both run away
'cause we were born this way.

i heard him pray
it was just the other day
he was on his knees
begging 'spare her, take me'
i lifted my head
he caught my interest
from the hospital bed
he looked at me
and i could see
the darkness had taken him

i said 'boy, don't die for
someone who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back.'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up'

i heard him laugh
when i crawled in last
he crawled beside me
trying to believe
but i know I'm gone
from these hills of gold and bronze
passed away
like summer to winter rain

i said 'boy, don't die for someone
who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up'

and i know he'll keep waiting
though my heart is failing
if i close my eyes
he fears they might never open
but i hear my heartbeat
through my ears
and i know I'll keep fighting
though the end is near

i said 'boy, don't die for someone
who's already dead.
'boy, don't cry for someone
who can't cry back.'
he just smiled
like i was a child
said 'i don't think it's failure
to never give up...'

Song -- Mess

do you think my new frames
are hiding my tearful eyes
because to me they're worthless

i feel the sting of pain
it's clawing at my hear-t
because i just saw them, not us.

i can smile though my heart is breaking
wish you well in my bridesmaids dress
he can't tell it's the feeling i'm faking
he think i'm just giving you good luck

goddamnit i love him
and i told you so last week
i'm trying to hide my fears
in finding this bittersweet

it's not sweet, it's just bitter
like the vodka i keep knocking back
don't touch me
i need space
but hand me the cognac

i feel like i should be screaming
but i can't find the energy
i feel like i shouldn't be beaming
as the photographer's camera sings

but i can smile though my heart is breaking
wish you well in my bridesmaids dress
you can't tell it's the feeling i'm faking
this is such a mess

if you want me to stay then just say so
but you know i'll only want to cry
if you want me to leave then just say so
but i might cause a scene this time

...did you know he was once mine.

Song -- Tess

sometimes i get startled
by the way life sends a shock
whenever i am settled

i was only watching
watching how your lips moved
as you spoke of love and living

then it hit me:
i just wanted to test those lips
and see if they were fit to kiss
soft and pink like ice candy
to see if you too... wanted me.

i never wanted it before
but suddenly everything was clear
sex never seemed an issue
girls and girls they do not mix
but what if they did?

oh if they did, tess
my lips would find your cheek
oh if they did, tess
i'd want to push you over the brink
just to see if you screamed

no no, this is wrong
i cannot think of you that way
you're a friend; a girl
i couldn't ever lead you astray

but you're two years older
and two years more beautiful
are you two years wiser
do you see where i want you to be?

oh if you did, tess
your lips would find my cheek
oh if you did, tess
you'd push me over the brink
...i think i'd scream

oh if you did, tess...

oh if you did, tess...

oh if you did [cresc.]
if you did
if you did
if you did
tess you're yelling words i cannot hear!

oh if i could, tess
i'd push my lips against your skin
oh if i could, tess
i'd make you scream
make you scream
make you scream

...would it make you happy?

xE

oh what a coincedence
you seem to have farted on my heart
stamped on my organs
i think i should mention at the start
you came home alone again
well im sorry darling that
i came home with a friend
and she left me feeling so bad

i dont mind if you kick up a fuss
im used to it
youd think that by now youd
just be used to it
like it apadted to suit you

but i see no point in stopping
why crush one when i could get you?
i know you love me
but its too late
you already crushed me to
all these little pieces
at least my mind works
i can still go out and screw
anyone it suits me
boy, i think it's time you left the room